Sex Conversation Is Different From Sex Talk

Viere came over today, whats new right, and the same as usual. The longer I'm with him the easier it is for me to talk to him about stuff. well the reason why i wanted to make this blog is to talk about this thing that he does during sex sometimes. He's done it a few times before, but today was when i really noticed it. and that is, sometimes he likes to have conversations during sex, and that totally throws me off sometimes. like for example today he had this long conversation, and I'll write it out:
so we're making out and then we start having sex then this
"When's your math test?" I'm thinking WTF?!
"Tomorrow"
"Did you study?"
"yes"
"are you sure?"
"yes"
"What other classes do you have tomorrow?"
"Computers" at this point I've getting pretty agitated.
"That's it?" i give him this look because i really don't think this is the right time to talk about this.
"What? Your lucky i actually care about your school work"
"But do we really have to talk about this now?" he takes the hint and stops having random conversations in the middle of sex, but then later he starts up another conversation! but then cuts it short, its weird because during sex all i think about is sex, and whats going on right then, right in the moment, he's like a multitasking woman....i guess he thinks better during sex, haha
Its pretty hard to put in words the situation for you to see the full extent of its strangeness, lol, also today he asked
"When are we going to get married?"
"I don't know" I never really had any intentions too, so I've never thought about it, he stared back at me and i just repeated "i don't know"
"Then when your done with school will you marry me?" he looked so serious but it was such and out there questions that i had to convince myself that he was kidding, but he didn't look like it.
"Maybe" i replied
"Will you think about it?"
"Yea"
"Promise?"
"....yea" it was weird, because he seemed so serious, i don't think I'm ready for marriage, but i am glad that he intends to be with me that long. but he question did make me realize one thing, and that the fact that, i really do love him, and i never noticed until today.

The one & only
DarkEmo

Feels Great

So it’s been a while since my last blog, and since I’ve been called a bitch, but whatever, everyone has a right to their own opinion, and that’s what makes the world such an angry place sometimes…conflict of idea’s. I’ve been absolutely swamped with homework since starting college and during my free time I’m either sleeping or trying to find a way to hang out with friends (though they’re always busy with homework too, lol) Viere comes over practically every other day and its gotten to the point where I expect him to come XD haha, he’s a bit predictable with that. We’re getting closer and I’m really opening up to him the longer we’re together. On Friday I had to go to the eye doctor and he came with me, and even helped pick out a new pair of glasses for me, so I’m really excited to get them (glasses take like a week to make after you order them) then he stayed with me at home later, because the doctor had put these drops in my eyes that made my pupils dilated so EVERYTHING was blurry and I couldn’t read anything even if it was right in my face. Today I kind of blew off homework and went to the mall with some friends. I ended up buying something at old navy for me and a shirt for Viere that I think would look good. I have to convince him to wear it though because he always buys two sizes too big for himself, and I just got the right size. I’m pretty excited to give it to him tomorrow, he’s coming over for a bit until some of my other friends come over because we’re (me and my friends) are kind of having a girls hang out at my place, So I’m going to force him to put it on then! Lol, OH! And I met Viere’s dad and step mom this weekend, it was a surprise visit, for both me and his parents, so I kinda looked crappy, I just had on a t-shirt, shorts, and my hair was pulled back in a sloppy pony tail XD lol, well it wasn’t really sloppy but it looked like I was going to the supermarket instead of meeting my boyfriends parents. Everything was good, he family seems fine. They’re really hard on him about staying in school and getting a good job, so that’s good, at least he has the drive/push to get that stuff done.

I’ve been searching like made for a job lately to help me pay for college text books, and eventually get a car, so far I’ve had an interview at old navy and they said they’d call in a week, so I’ve still got five days before I hear any news, and then in two weeks I’ve got an interview at bath and body works, I went in today and spoke with the hiring manager, so hopefully that gained me some points, and then I’ve applied to just about everywhere else with a hiring sign. So I just have to wait and see what comes up. I’m praying for the old navy job though because I absolutely love that store. My whole house is filled with old navy stuff!

As for the whole dez thing, I’m over it, but he still wants to ‘talk’ about it, even though we have a million and one times, I guess he won’t think we’ve really talked about it until we’re friends again…anyway today I did some cleaning, just took some stuff out of my room that was his, because I feel, like there’s no point in having it now. One thing I couldn’t throw away though was a picture painting thing he gave me, I couldn’t destroy that because it was art, and not just a pic like the other stuff I tossed, so I was planning on just giving it away tomorrow instead, someone else can look at it. My room kinda has a different vibe to it

The one & only

DarkEmo

Birthday Cakes & Heart Breaks

So today's Viere's 24th birthday =] i bought my man his giant ass condoms and birthday cupcakes (the cashier at the store was looking at me funny when i tossed down condom's, cupcakes, and candles lol) he came over and we hung out and talked, but then all his family kept calling him to wish him happy birthday, then he smothered me in his cake and ate it off me....thats rite....that wasnt a typo, i was a little embarrassed at first, but just went with it, that reminds me, i have to change my sheets, its covered in frosting, and then after we made passionate love for what seemed like hours XD haha, but then i got tired and he was ok with it (so our sex talked worked! =]) later we watched his favorite movie "fight club" and then ordered some Chinese food. it was a good day up until Dez called, but i'll get to that later. So me and Veire spent practically the whole day together and at one point he was like
"Why do i love you so much?" and i said
"I don't know" come on! what the hell am i suppose to say to that on the spot? Now i'm thinking i should of said something like "because i'm a hot commodity" or something dumb/sarcastic like that, and then finally we we're watching tv both stuffed from our food, and a strange number called my phone, i assumed it was Viere's cousin or mother (because they have my number) but it was dez, i've been ignoring his call for weeks and he tricked me with a different number, i've never seen something piss me off more, i told him i was busy but he kept talking about his day and couldn't take the hint that i didn't want to talk to him, and he kept talking and talking but i wasnt really listening to him, and finally Veire said he had to go, he said
"I would stay longer but your friend ruined our day" He was only joking but dez did ruin my day because ever since our fight just hearing his voice pisses me off. Before Viere left he asked if i wanted to go out to lunch with him at TGI Friday's tomorrow and i said yes, i love going out with him =] so anyway, Dez kept blabbing and then asked me whats wrong and i told him straight up, that i was done, and everytime he calls i remember what he did and i can never forget it nor forgive it, so he had this whole crying moment and said he was heart broken and it sounded like he was my boyfriend for years and i broke up with him for nothing, he told me he'd give me two weeks to cool down. Me and Desmond Ward is done, we will never be best friends again and i doubt i'd be regular friends with him now. He's made his mistake and "i'm sorry" wont make me forget it, i've accepted sorry one too many times

The one and only
DarkEmo

Big ass D***

So me and Viere usually get Trojan ultra thin condoms, because it has spermicidal lube (kills sperm on contact) but we ran out and he got regular trojan condoms (way back when i told you he walked is ass to publix) but the times that we used the original kind the condom ripped....all four times -_-' and he said that its harder for him to put it on too, so i told him that i'd go out and buy some...since he got the wrong ones last time who knows what he'll get if i send him again, so now I've got to get his black ass trojan magnum because the other one's are too small. He gets off at 8 tonight and said he might stop by, but i just remembered that i have class tonight from 6 to 9. I guess I'll stop by publix a little later to get the condom's and to tell him that i wont be home tonight. He has tomorrow off but I've got school till around 3.

Applebee's & Wedding Bells

Been meaning to make a blog for a while now, but once again my computer was causing internet trouble again. Three weeks since school started and I’ve just been reading pages upon pages and writing essay’s when I’m not studying I’m usually with Viere. I was suppose to meet his parents the other day (well his dad and step mom) but his dad didn’t get home till late and I didn’t really feel like going there around that time so we postponed it to next Thursday, and I’m driving, to be honest I don’t really care about driving, why should I stress about him not having a car when he has a house and a job and is in school? It’s just an unnecessary worry…don’t get me wrong, if he asks me to pick him up all the time I’d be pissed, but so far he’s never called me for a ride. Also his birthday is Friday and he wants to go to either Applebee’s or steak & shake because he’s never been to either. I’ve never been to steak & shake also, but I don’t think I want to XD and I was kind of surprised that he’s never been to Applebee’s because I’ve been to practically every restaurant out there and just assumed most people had, he must of saw my look because he was like “what? It’s my money?” and I responded “Nothing, I just thought you’d want to go somewhere else for your birthday” I have high taste, I like PF Chang’s and Cheesecake Factory where one plate can cost $20 he’s happy with Denny’s and Applebee’s, I’m totally fine with that, I just have to remember that not everyone throws their money away on needless things =] One thing that’s kind of been on my mind also is that, one of my friends said that Viere is in the marrying age and that he might want to settle down. At first I just ignored that but now I’m starting to think, maybe they’re right. Because when we first started dating he did say he was looking for something serious, and so am I but I don’t know if it’s that serious. I know it may sound like I’m jumping to conclusions, but since we’ve been together he’s talked about marriage and kids a few times. I’ve made sure to tell him that I’m not planning on having kids until after I finish med school, so if we’re together still then I’ll be 26 and he’ll be around 32. Who knows, I doubt we’ll be together that long anyway.

The One & Only

DarkEmo

Can't Help But Love His Weirdness

So its been a few days since my last post, and I've read the comments and seen how angry everyone was getting at him. In the last few days since then we've talked on the phone, or he's come over before work and we'd either watch a movie (today he watched some of district 9 with me before he had to go to work) or we'd just talk outside. We've been together for almost 3 months now, and his birthday is next week (the 18th, he's turning 24) and i still haven't decided what to get him, IF i even get him anything. Today he asked if on Thursday (because he gets off work early then) i could go with him to wal-mart and help him shop for some boxers and pick up a few things (like socks and grocery's). I've never really been in a relationship but...is that normal for people who's only been going out for three months? and the other day he offered something that i wouldn't let a guy do unless we've been married for years! it was so embarrassing that i cant even put in on the blog! (just try and guess what it was) it was a nice offer, but not something a girl wants to hear from her new boyfriend. Sometimes he acts like we've been dating for a year instead of 3 months, and its sweet and cute...but sometimes very shocking o_o Oh, and i found out that some of the soreness i was feeling was because of the BC pills I've been taking...it's also causing another little annoying side affect so i have to go to the dreaded 'woman' doctor and get a new prescription and see if this one will be better. That reminds me ladies, birth control pills are a pain in the ass, abstinence is the best policy, lol XD I haven't had the 'cool down on the sex' talk yet, but he's coming over tomorrow before i go to the dentist so i guess if it comes up then i can try to toss it in. My mom said that sometimes i can be a bit judgmental of him, because he have such different backgrounds. for one he's 'black' on the inside and I'm 'preppy white' on the inside. maybe she's right...sometimes i do find myself thinking about how he'd look better in this and maybe he should try that, like a new nice shirt, or boxer briefs instead of just boxers, but I'm trying to cool down that controlling side, and just accept him the way he is...well most of him. Btw i take back my 1% retard comment, that was a bit harsh Dee...a bit harsh.

The one & only (& still in shock she has a steady boyfriend)

DarkEmo

P.S. College's a bitch

On The Fence & In Pain...a little

So I haven't really made a blog lately because either things have just been fine and dandy or they where way to personal for me to tell the general public. Me and Viere have been through some things and he's been there 100%, supporting me and being nice and just an all around great guy, like when i was sick for two weeks with that gum infection and i was quarentined from everyone he still came by and would kiss me saying that "as long as its from you i dont care" because the gum thing was kinda contageous. But today just had me a bit worried about our future and I'll admit i was a bit heated and finally had time to cool down a little. First things first. we have sex a lot, and i'm not really a 'do it all the time' person, but what ever, i dont know what i was thinking everytime we did it.
So tuesday we ran out of condoms, but we still 'did it' i know dumb, i was kinda freaking out about pregnancy for a while but it was the day after my period so all my fertile eggs where gone...not to mention i'm on the pill. and then today he came over because it was his day off and we had sex again (he had a condom in his wallet) and then he tried again and i was like, wait, we need a condom, i guess he thought since we didnt use one that one time we wouldnt need it all the time. But i was kinda using the 'no condom' thing as an excuse, because i'm tired of all the sex, i just want a guy who i can sit with and watch tv with and hang out where we dont have to have sex all the time, i'm good with once a month even! and what erked me was the fact that he actually got up and walked his ass to publix and bought a pack T_T I was irritated because before he left i told him that sex isnt everything to me and i'm not use to going at it so much and i've lived most of my life without it so i'm good so cant we just watch tv or something and he said
"Its not sex to me, its love" so when he came back i was all bitter and he kept trying to do it because it was his day off and we wern't going to see each other until wednesday, but i wasnt in the mood, plus i was always sore after. So we sat there and talked for a long time, just about random stuff and i cooled down and thought of how great he was, and then after all his F'in nagging we ended up doing it again (notice the annoyance in my words)
another thing that happened today that had me a bit worried was we where both watchng tv and a commercial came on where a lady said "When i have one of those days, i get them a happy meal" and its like that triggered something in him because he just burst out yelling "woman! have you ever had one of those days?!" and all i could say was "what the hell?" and i just stared at him and in my head i was thinking, oh my god! he's 1% retarted!
So those two instances today really have me on the fence of whether this is really going to work or not....because I don't want a relationship based on sex, and i'm not even really into sex all that much (don't get me wrong, he's good at what he does, but thats not all i'm looking for) and then that random ass out burst really freaked me out, because he was laughing all crazy like when he said it. when i told my mom about the "special" thing she said that it was just him having a little fun and i shouldnt think he's special or anything. Is this really the man i'm going to be with for a year(s)?

The one & only
DarkEmo

This sex thing is really pissing me off