A surprise i could of waited for

Third blog of the day, and this is a good one, Easter Sunday is full of surprises. My best friends phone got cut off, so lately he's been calling me on random numbers, mostly his cousins, so I've come to recognize around the first four digest when i see it. after a day of anime and talking to Sara i was feeling pretty good about life and how smooth everything was going. the fact that I'm graduating soon, that I'm heading over seas during the summer, that i finally finished a very kick ass essay for my English class and that I've taken the initiative to start working out... so what I'm trying to get too is that, i just got a phone call, and the first few numbers looked familiar so i answered thinking it was Dez calling from his cousins phone. what surprised me the most was the fact that the voice that greeted my hello, was that of a very Hispanic man.... -_-' it was Daniel. He asked me why i haven't called in so long and if i lied about loving him and that he loves me and he wants to see me blah blah blah! I was so annoyed to begin with that he was the one on the phone that i wasn't being gentle at all "its because we're over, done" "i don't want to do this anymore" "how do you expect me to see you now after we haven't spoken in so long!" i said things like that, he's totally crazy, he even said he was going to kill himself! T_T I'm so tired of this guy, this is the guy who took my first everything. it was never suppose to turn out like this... i thought it would of been over from the first time.
He said he's going jogging tomorrow at the park and asked for me to meet him, i said no. Now I'm thinking that maybe i should go to straighten things out and let him know face to face that i don't want to see him anymore, but only if I'm with at least one friend...preferably three...any volunteers.

The one & only
DarkEmo

Aftermath

so its been a few days since i ended it with Dan and i have to admit that i do miss him. He was serious about the 'call everyday' thing though and has even tried to call me on different numbers so i wouldn't know it was him. i know that if i answer I'll get sucked up into this whole thing again, so I'm trying to stay calm and not answer...sometimes i get freaked out though, wondering if he'll turn into one of those crazy ex-boyfriend killers, the 'if i cant have you, no one will' syndrome......i hope not, hopefully he'll give up and stop calling, he even calls in the morning too while I'm at school, which he never use to do. I'm trying to take everything easy, because i feel liked i raced into this way to fast, so after i clear my head and try to start my life over, I'll finally be able to have a normal relationship, but this time i wont rush it, I'll just go with the flow, no matter how slow the current is. I wonder if there will be more drama or not in my life? Jamie is still here and i do have feelings for him, but i try not to get excited when something happens because i don't want to be let down again, so if anything is more steady, or if anything BIG happens between us, I'll let you know. He's still going to prom with me though =]

The one & only
DarkEmo

Change of Plan's

it seems like every time I'm suppose to go to Dan's place something comes up! Tuesday i had an unexpected meeting and had to stay late, Wednesday Dan lost his phone and by the time he called me it was too late to go over, and today my mom had an emergency and i had to rush home to look after my sister. i didn't even call him today to let him know because i didn't want to tell him the bad news, yet again, that i wouldn't be able to come, it sucks though because he took the day off today for me to come over and i didn't even show up, but i will go tomorrow!! i know that he'll call and ask what the hell happened, but that will be the day though, i have a lot of stuff to do, but I'm going to make sure that i have time for him and we can hit the sheets!! =D lol, specially after my horny blog.

oh and thanks for the comments Lady V. they really make my day ^_^ i want to ask him, but as stupid as this sounds i don't know how to bring it up. i want to just sit him down and talk about dating and us, but every time we're around each other we end up having sex XD lol and p.s. wouldn't a blog about my boyfriend be boring? with no drama, just Hispanic sex?? haha! but i really enjoy the comments ^_^

Thats it?!

So i just got back from Dan's house and decided to make a blog....after showering, checking my myspace, my e-mail and more, so really i came back about half an hour ago XD lol! Dan and I meet up now about two or three times a week now, and he calls practically every day. He's a good distraction, instead of obsessing about what 'could be' with someone else, i just get agitated at how fast Dan is (in area's that he shouldn't be) when we first started he would last maybe about 10 to 15 minutes, which was fine with me, but today... as soon as i got there he was already done! not really, it was more like 5 minutes later, and i was so disappointed because i was just starting to get excited -_-' and when he tried again he couldn't get it up again, but he said he's call and wanted to see me again tomorrow, but i said Thursday, i don't want to go over EVERY day of the week!

one thing that i noticed today too was that it doesn't hurt as much as it did at first. thank god because it hurt like a fucker that very first time! and there's the whole Jamie thing.... I've stopped thinking about him as much as i use to and the feelings has gone down, because yesterday at school he kinda.....really looked like an idiot, but i don't want to judge him based on that, but it did change some things...but then again you don't have to be smart to do what i want him to do =]
and I'm also seeing couples all over the place and it kinda makes me jealous because i don't want just emotionless sex...i want a relationship, a real one.....

The one & only
DarkEmo

The Fuckin Apocalypse

This is battle of the motha fuckin sexes! when i tell you I've never been so fucking pissed in my entire life by one person before! OH MY GOD! i cant believe this whore is going to try and mess with my man, and then pretend that she doesn't like him and that she's helping me, when I'm around! first of all, she didn't even like him until i mentioned that i wanted to get into his pants!!! that conniving bitch >=o i just want to drop kick her in the face with angry music blasting in the background and a ring of fire surrounding us!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! nothing can even come close to how pissed i am right now! so pissed that I'm not even filling you in on what happened before! i hate this girl more then i hate John McCain! It. Is. On.