A surprise i could of waited for

Third blog of the day, and this is a good one, Easter Sunday is full of surprises. My best friends phone got cut off, so lately he's been calling me on random numbers, mostly his cousins, so I've come to recognize around the first four digest when i see it. after a day of anime and talking to Sara i was feeling pretty good about life and how smooth everything was going. the fact that I'm graduating soon, that I'm heading over seas during the summer, that i finally finished a very kick ass essay for my English class and that I've taken the initiative to start working out... so what I'm trying to get too is that, i just got a phone call, and the first few numbers looked familiar so i answered thinking it was Dez calling from his cousins phone. what surprised me the most was the fact that the voice that greeted my hello, was that of a very Hispanic man.... -_-' it was Daniel. He asked me why i haven't called in so long and if i lied about loving him and that he loves me and he wants to see me blah blah blah! I was so annoyed to begin with that he was the one on the phone that i wasn't being gentle at all "its because we're over, done" "i don't want to do this anymore" "how do you expect me to see you now after we haven't spoken in so long!" i said things like that, he's totally crazy, he even said he was going to kill himself! T_T I'm so tired of this guy, this is the guy who took my first everything. it was never suppose to turn out like this... i thought it would of been over from the first time.
He said he's going jogging tomorrow at the park and asked for me to meet him, i said no. Now I'm thinking that maybe i should go to straighten things out and let him know face to face that i don't want to see him anymore, but only if I'm with at least one friend...preferably three...any volunteers.

The one & only
DarkEmo

Easter Sunday

I'm home and its Easter, so every where is closed, today is my mom's last day before she's goes out of town for work and we're doing nothing, so I'm talking with Sara. i told her about the web cam and we have a 'date' for later, its kinda weird because i don't really know what to expect, lol, but we've been talking for hours about nothing really and i like that. she knows just what to say to make me feel better (i kinda got into an argument with my dad in the middle of talking to Sara) and i feel like a different person when I talk with her....still somewhat me, but with nothing to fear. i guess that's what happens when u talk to someone online =D but i still cant help but wonder what would happen if she was in driving distance away =3 .....that's something to think about

The one & only
DarkEmo

P.S. even though we have so much going on, I'm trying not to get caught up in much, I've never really had a good history when it comes to relationships....sexual or not.

Sore and not in a good way

OK so its the day after my intense workout with my dad, and let me just say i almost died -_- he's been working out everyday for 20 years, so he's defiantly got the upper hand, but i cant get it into his head that this is my first day warming back into it...i felt like i was on the biggest loser and he was the chick, she's one of the meanest trainers, she doesn't even care if u throw up XD lol i have to get new shoes too because the ones i was working out in gave me some pretty bad sores ;-; and this morning i could barely put on my pants because my muscles are killing me....it even hurts to type XD he wanted me to come back and work out today, but i told him i needed a break -_- and I'm going tomorrow though...wish me luck

The one & only
DarkEmo

P.S. i finally got a new webcam =]

Been a Long Time

Its been a real long time since I've made a blog. guess its because my life isn't as drama filled as it was before, and nothing really romantic going on....or crazy. Since my last post Dan tried to contact me again, but i told him i couldn't meet him and i think he finally got the point. I haven't spoken/texted him since. schools been really relaxed and i only have 1 month left until i graduate. my college plans are some what done. meaning I've already been accepted to a school and set up that I'm going, i just haven't picked out any of my classes yet. and the only person I'm flirting it up with is Sara, but its kinda frustrating that she's in Portugal now -_-' before we've just been writing each other but now she wants to start using a web cam XD lol but i don't know, maybe after i get to my goal weight =] I've been dieting and exercising and i just signed up for a new gym last week. i lost a lot so far, but my goal is to get a beach bod, one i can wear a 2 piece and not have to worry about how i look. so if i keep losing as fast as i have been already I'll be beach bod/web cam ready in no time =D haha!

The one & only

DarkEmo

P.S. I'm going to Jamaica over summer vacation, maybe i can convince Sara to fly over too =]

Sara

who is that you say? Well this is the girl i fooled around with way back when, and basically my first real lesbian experience, I've known her for a while, but lately we're been talking a lot, she's in Portugal now for college so we talk online all the time, and even send pictures back and forth. even though I've seen it all before each glance is like the first time. In the beginning before all this and before we "got to know" each other better, she said she wasn't looking for a relationship, and at the time i was still dating Dan, but now I'm hoping things will change. we fooled around more then once, and have even gotten interrupted a few times, and every time i talk to her i feel more and more relaxed, like i can say anything and not worry. I want her to fly down here or for me to fly up, so that something can happen like in the movies XD lol, but i know it wont happen, so I'm gonna have to just settle with talking for now....and sometimes it gets dirty

The one & only
DarkEmo

P.S. i got a new swim suite and it looks good, hopefully if i keep losing weight like i have been then it will look HOT and i can get a sexy "sara" down here in florida, lol =]

Vampire Kiss

so i think my vampire lover stayed in the sun too long. I haven't heard anything from her in a while and i guess its good that i wasn't attached to her. Schools same as ever and ever since i turned 18 I've been flirting with just about everything on two legs (of the human anatomy of course) even though Jaime's dog keeps trying to take advantage of me XD lol that dog is always on someone, and the last time i was over there i was her victim ;_; ..... anyway, Dan's been pissing the hell out of me and i just wish that he would forget my number -_-'.

I realize that with my life now, i try not to get too excited for things and blow them off as nothing until its too late, and I've been doing that with my blog lately, like by the time I've actually written something in here its been long gone and i cant ever remember all of it....i need to work on that, anyway, I've got some good info, but I'll save that for my next blog ^_^

p.s. why is it when i google "vampire lovers" i get a bunch of lesbians o_O

The one & only
DarkEmo

Vampire Sex?

so the movies was great, Dan didn't come, but he called and said he'll come next weekend, but i don't really get excited when he say's things, because he doesn't always stay true to his word. he called again today, but i didn't feel like talking to him so i didn't answer, he's really behind me now. I thought i should share this little story with you, because to me its pretty funny. so lately i've been signing up for these gay dating sights, because if you forgot, i'm bi, and i've made loads of friends there which is great, but then on tokyopop the last place i would expect to meet someone, was where i did, but wait there's more! its a girl, who swears she's a vampire XD......we were talking for about a month and then she asked if i wanted to start dating her, so i said sure why not. because in my head i was thinking its not like we'll ever see each other, because she lives all the way in Oklahoma (btw she's 16 XD lol) so then as we get to talking i find out she's bi-polar. so this proves that all the strange things seem to love to find its way to me. your looking at the only person, in America, dating a Bi-polar vampire lesbian XD now's your time to laugh.

The one & only
DarkEmo