Change of Plan's

it seems like every time I'm suppose to go to Dan's place something comes up! Tuesday i had an unexpected meeting and had to stay late, Wednesday Dan lost his phone and by the time he called me it was too late to go over, and today my mom had an emergency and i had to rush home to look after my sister. i didn't even call him today to let him know because i didn't want to tell him the bad news, yet again, that i wouldn't be able to come, it sucks though because he took the day off today for me to come over and i didn't even show up, but i will go tomorrow!! i know that he'll call and ask what the hell happened, but that will be the day though, i have a lot of stuff to do, but I'm going to make sure that i have time for him and we can hit the sheets!! =D lol, specially after my horny blog.

oh and thanks for the comments Lady V. they really make my day ^_^ i want to ask him, but as stupid as this sounds i don't know how to bring it up. i want to just sit him down and talk about dating and us, but every time we're around each other we end up having sex XD lol and p.s. wouldn't a blog about my boyfriend be boring? with no drama, just Hispanic sex?? haha! but i really enjoy the comments ^_^

Slaker!

I'm so horny T_T i haven't had sex since 'the greatest sex ever' blog and I'm totally going through the symptoms of cutting back, like don't get me wrong, Dan is still in the picture and he calls every day, but his work schedule has been changed up, and its harder for him to see me, he called me about 3 different times yesterday and the last time i missed his call =/ so i didn't get to talk to him in the night. one thing he likes to do though which sucks since i cant see him is to talk dirty on the phone >_< and its always in the strangest places! its so sexually frustrating!! he's like a can of pringles, once you pop you just cant stop!! lol! XD and if you haven't guessed, me and Dan are kinda official now, but for all the Jamie fans out there, he's still in the picture, but I'm not trying to pursue a relationship from him, because he doesn't really know what he wants and i guess since i was his first he wants to test out some more options. but i wouldn't mind sleeping with him again, teach him some new tricks...hopefully he lasts longer =D lmao!!! i feel like I'm cheating on Dan when i say things like that, but as long as i don't do it wile we're together, then I'm fine. I never thought we'd be together this long, when i first met Dan i thought he was going to be a one night stand, and it even seemed like that for a wile, but it seems like he's really sincere. Hopefully i wont go into this thing thinking about sunshine and stars, just to get chewed up and spit out. I'm giving him the benefit of the doubt....wile still keeping my distance at the same time, smart way, i hope. Its not as hard for me to say i love you as it use to be....

The one & only
DarkEmo

Alienation

So apparently, all i had to do to get Jamie to actually be a bit interested was to ignore him. The last two days i didn't pay any attention to him, basically pretended that he didn't exist and ever since he's been all over me, and follows me around in lunch (not stalkerish follow though) and its just ironic....and funny, that when you don't show a guy any interest is when he wants to actually start bugging you. its stupid, I've officially given him a theme song too, hot & cold by Kattie Perry or whatever her name is, because he's just like that, one minute he's cold and when i forget about him he's hot XD lol, but if me alienating him has gotten me this far, i think I'll keep it up and play hard to get, because if he's really interested then he may make a move, and if not, then i wont care, because I've already forgotten about him and not even that interested in the whole "us" thing any more because I've got someone else on the side, and my mind is busy with my new years resolution, which i have been sticking to so far....hopefully i wont waiver. Jamie is the youngest one of the both and he's probably a bit immature with this whole thing (he's even younger then me) and so you've got to expect him to be a bit slow in his reactions when it comes to confronting people of the opposite sex......wow, sometimes i feel like all i talk about is either Jamie or Dan...and maybe a little bit of Steve, who just happens to of raised from the dead and started talking to me again ^_^

The one & only
DarkEmo

Cutting Strings

So finally I've made up my mind to try and cut Jamie out of my life entirely, he came with to much confusion, and i hated the fact that i thought about him as much as i did and alienated Dan like i did. So I'm just going to ignore the emotional/ physical part of our relationship and just try to be friends, we're still going to prom together but i made sure to emphasize that we were friends in the conversation today that we (all of my friends) were having about prom. I think he somewhat took my lack of interest as a challenge, because he kept following me around today during lunch. I didn't acknowledge it though. I've been talking to Dan a bit more and it's actually starting to feel like a relationship, I also got invited to a couples only valentines day (my birthday) party, so i was thinking about asking Dan, later of course because its waaaayyyyy to early, and if he says yea, then that would be great ^_^ if not, then whatever. Also whats new is that i cut off a lot of my hair last week, so I'm going for the short look, everyone seems to like it so far =] and i love it! it makes me feel like a new person entirely, also I'm trying to drop a little weight before prom, hopefully the tickets for that wont be to expensive, because if its over $100 I'm not going, and might just have an alternative prom instead -_-'

The one & only
DarkEmo

P.S. once again, thanks for all the comments you guys, and keep them up ^_^ i like to read what you think =3

Best Sex Ever

Great post for the new year! ^_^ So I was suppose to meet Dan on Thursday, but i didn't really feel like going so i ditched him XD lol, but he called and we rescheduled to today, he works on Saturdays so i had to go over in the morning before he had to leave, and it was the best sex we've ever had! mostly when ever we have sex, he normally just goes in and out and after i still need more. but today, it was all about me, and he took his time, it was amazing! it was hours ago but I'm still imagining and feeling it. I talked to my friend dez about it and he said he probably changed because the night before he (Dan) had called me and we we're talking about sex, i kinda sorta told him he had an average penis, even though he's a bit small, because he asked me if he was big and i didnt want to flat out lie to him, it never occurred to me that, that could be it. Dez also said that Dan had a lot of energy since it was before work when we usually meet up after work. but what ever the reason was, i hope he keeps up the good work, because he knows how to use it, hence size doesn't always matter, just how you use the tools......shame it couldn't of been Jamie though.....

The one & only
DarkEmo

Spontaneous

so its been a really long week... and its only Tuesday. the new year is starting in just a few days and Dan called me today, I'm meeting him on Thursday, because I'm kinda busy the tomorrow, after i got off the phone with him though i realized what made me so disconnected from him and so interested in Jamie. Me and Dan always plan out when we "meet up" and then Jamie was spontaneous. i didn't go to that party thinking that i was going to sleep with him that day, but every time i see Dan i know that we're going to have sex. I like to be surprised.

The one & only
DarkEmo

Cross Roads

so its after the holidays, thanks for the few comments that were left btw, and LV, I've tried that and the list is pretty short...on both sides XD lol. as for whats been up for the last few days, a few family members have been staying over so i haven't had my computer in a wile (hence the lack of blogs) on Christmas Dan called to wish my happy holiday's, i wasn't really thinking he would but it was a good thought. I was at a party at the time and he could hear the music, he asked if i could come over after the party but i told him i couldn't because i was with family, and then that i wouldn't be free until Sunday, so he asked me to see him next week, kinda made me promise that i would. when i had finally made my mind to end things with Jamie and work my way off of Dan eventually, Jamie called me today, on my house number when i never gave it to him, it was weird because i wasn't expecting it (no one knows my house number except my best friend, everyone else calls my cell) and he wanted to know when prom was and how much it was because he got a free limo that we could use. guess i cant ditch him yet, especially if he's going to prom with me! =]

The one & only
DarkEmo

P.S. Thanks for the comments guys ^_^ i really enjoyed them