Missing the In-between

Haven't made a blog in a while and that's mostly because i thought everyone would be tired of hearing about Viere, so if you are....you shouldn't read this blog because i talk about him partially. Since my last blog I've finally got a job in the mall. Right now the hours aren't so great but the boss is saying it'll pick up during the holiday. I was hired as a seasonal employee though so I'm hoping that all the hard work that I'm doing now will make them want to keep me as a year round employee. Besides work I'm kinda struggling in school with my math class, but then again math has never been my best subject, and the teacher isn't really that great at going over the problems, so i end up trying to teach myself all of the work. I barley have time for myself now a days because I'm always at school, doing homework, or at work, and the little time i do have off i try to squeeze in Viere, but its hard because he's working and trying to find a place of his own too, so its not like high school dating where you just worry about your boyfriend and friends and then doing homework. Sometimes i feel like I've skipped the college life and took an express train straight to adulthood! Viere asked me to move in with him when he buys his place (right now he has a roommate so he's trying to get a place for just himself) he asked me twice, the first time i didn't really answer and then the second time, i told him no, but in more words though, he was kinda sad but he understood because i told him i wanted to save up some of my own money first before i moved out of my parents place. I kinda do want to move in with him, but its way too soon so i know its a bad idea. There are lots of things that i want to do with him but its not in my time line to become a doctor. So I'm trying to stick to my plan, and he's being patient with me, but i wonder for how long, because everything is always when I'm free or when i feel like it. We need to compromise, but i don't think that will happen until a few things clear up in both of our lives. Maybe he's being so understanding because I'm still in school right now....any way he said after he saves money for a place and everything he wants to go back to school to become a pilot. Sometimes i wish money wasn't as important as it was. It makes life so hard, the rich stay rich and the poor gets 'poor'er (i know that's not a word but its poetic licenses, you know what it means and that all that matters)

The one & only
DarkEmo

P.S. its been over four months now, i wonder if we'll make it to a year

Tell me this isnt ironic

So Terra called me tonight, and i answered the phone. She calls or texts every now and then, and i respond just to be a good friend, i have Viere and she knows it and i love him to much to even consider being dragged back into that crazy 'relationship' that we had. So anyway, she called to complain about how her gay friend keeps sleeping around with all these guys and cheating on his boyfriends and stuff and how that pisses her off when someone cheats because she's been cheated on before blah blah blah, and i'm just sitting here listening to this thinking "This chick cheated on me while we dated!" and she actually has the nerve to come and call on me to complain about her gay bff cheating? wow. anyway she was trying to seduce me but i wasn't picking up on anything, because i wasn't interested any more and i wasn't a cheater. and then she brought up stories from when we dated and the 'good times' we had, i have that in quotations because i don't really know if you can call those good times....sometimes when i give her the benefit of the doubt she turns around and does something stupid, she even asked me if i still had feelings for her, which i don't. As for me and Viere on regular terms, where more like a regular couple, two weeks into our fourth month...he really wants to get married though because he's kinda been telling people i'm his wife XD not a lot of people though, thanks goodness, i don't think i'd be a good Mrs. Davis. He kinda got irritated with me the other day because he said that i never have time for him, and now that i look back its kinda true. I never wanted to be one of those girls who dump friends for their boyfriend so i was always hanging out with my friends even on days when V was suppose to come over so that he could hang with them too, so we haven't been 'alone' for about three weeks now. Like we hadn't seen each other for about a week because i was busy studying for school and the one day i had off i had a job interview, so finally i had a Thursday to myself and he was suppose to come over (we called each other like every day that week) but when he did come over, two of my other friends came over later to hang out, and i was like "sure why not!" and thats the day that he said i never have time for him because i'm always with my friends. This Sunday i'm suppose to go out with some friends to go get some sushi, but then he called and invited me to this carnival thing thats on the same day, so i'm trying to see if i can fit them both in tomorrow, or which ever one i choose. I know if i choose my friends V is probably going to leave, since i'm bailly with him and always with them, and i know if i choose him, my friends might think i'm 'one of those girls'.....i'm stuck between a rock and a hard place. Certain people think i should break up with V because of a few none important things, but i'm sticking strongly to my own feelings now, and staying with him. Usually i use other people's advice to do things, but with this, i'm following my heart and doing what i think i right, and not what others think i should do, because in the end, i'm the one who has to live with the choices, not them.

The one & only

DarkEmo

Foursome's Aren't Always Filled w/Joy

So I had the truck for the day and went out with two of my friends. Viere was suppose to come over earlier that day but he never showed, and when i finally called him (around 4) he said he had actually just woke up. Friday night him and some friends got drunk, and he slept in the whole day, after that we stopped by his place to pick up my ipod because he borrowed it the day before and headed to Sawgrass Mall, he couldn't come because he was going to help his friend shave his head, not Viere....the friend, so anyways while we where at the mall V called back again and asked me if i wanted to hang out later since he couldn't when i cam by earlier and i said sure. So after walking around the mall and then making the long journey back to the parking lot (walking the sawgrass mall is like a months worth of cardio workouts) we went to V's house then i dropped of my two friends. I just wanted to go to his place and blah blah, but he said that his cousin was there with three other girls and he didn't want me to hear that, or see any naked girls walking around, so i was like what ever, i was a bit cranky though because i was tired and was on the road all day so i just wanted to go either to his place or mine and just relax and go to sleep, but instead we went to the house of "The woman who practically raised him" that was his words, and i met his half sister and some more family members. I'm just going to call this lady his step mom, because thats who she was at one point but then his dad remarried....again, to the first step mom that i met. So step-mom B (since she was the second one i met) was just asking me stuff like, where i was from, how long me and Viere's been together, and if he treats me right, and then she was giving him tips about how to remember anniversary's because "thats something women never forget and men should know" which is true, because i do remember the very first day that Viere first asked me out, i even remember the second time he asked me too! (if you remember how we met, then the second asking out thing will make more scene) and finally a family friend got me a necklace from Zales today, so i finally have a new, and really nice necklace to wear instead of the old ones i use to have that was from claire's. Don't really know what else to post, i'm really tired from being out all day, I'm trying to take my mom out to dinner sunday night just for the hell of it and the next time i see Viere will be Thursday, the longest we've been apart.

The one & only

DarkEmo